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Schizophrenia [Dec. 4th, 2009|02:01 pm]
So I finally have arrived at knowing what is going on with me from a psychiatric perspective. I do not take drugs or a drug. I do not suffer with bi-polar or manic-depressive. These are all mental illnesses that are grouped along with what I have - schizophrenia. (I personally think that people who take drugs are mentally unstable). It is very helpful to know what I have so that when I do the homework or research and find out how much sense it makes, I can feel on the same page as the researchers in the big universities around the world and the doctors, at least the ones who know what they are doing.

Many thoughts and questions have arrived since the diagnosis two months ago. One is "Was C. S. Lewis schizophrenic" and another is "if Johnny Nash was schizophrenic, what does that mean for other schizophrenics like him"?

I really like having a livejournal, though I do not update it as often as I ought to, for the reason that I can express my thoughts, my experiences, my emotions, and help others.

I am currently doing research on schizophrenia through a reference work at the library called "Schizophrenia and Other Psychotic Disorders" by Richard Noll, Ph.D. Third Edition.

I wonder if having this disorder lines up with the fact that when I write notes to myself I disagree with them days or weeks later when I rediscover what I have written.

I wonder if having this disorder has anything to do with my distaste for foul language and abusive speech.

I hope and pray someone out there will love me for who I am despite my disorder.
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peace [Aug. 27th, 2009|03:04 pm]
anger and resentment cause disease in my body

i am free from resentment when i ask God to remove my anger

i am at peace when i say i can be free from anger and resentment

i can ask God to remove the disease from my body

i can repeat to myself i am free from anger

i can repeat to myself i am free from resentment

i can repeat to myself i am resolved

i will make immediate amends when i become angry

i will avoid personalities who become angry with me

i will avoid personalities who become angry with me

i will avoid personalities who become angry with me
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Carl Jung, Sigmund Freud, Modernism Postmodernism and the Medieval Renaissance world [Jul. 20th, 2009|02:33 pm]
How do we update the collective consciousness using resources like Eckankar and Sigmund Freud from the Renaissance / Medieval thinking to a modern Jungian or post-modern Kierkegaard worldview (whom I have not yet read)?

How how how how?
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Introducing Crytopgraphy [Apr. 29th, 2009|01:30 pm]
For centuries kings queens and generals have relied on efficient communication in order to govern their countries and command their armies at the same time they have all been aware of the consequences of their messages falling into the wrong hands revealing precious secrets to rival nations and betraying vital information to opposing forces it was the threat of enemy interception that motivated the development of codes and ciphers techniques for disguising a message so that only the intended recipient can read it the desire for secrecy has meant that nations have operated codemaking departments which were responsible for ensuring the security of communications by inventing and implementing the best possible codes at the same time enemy codebreakers have attempted to break these codes and steal secrets codebreakers are linguistic alchemists a mystical tribe attempting to conjure sensible words out of meaningless symbols the history of codes and ciphers is the story of the centuries old battle between codemakers and codebreakers an intellectual arms race that has had a dramatic
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Update [Dec. 1st, 2008|08:15 pm]
It's Monday. It's 8:15. I don't know who my audience is so I'll write as if the entire planet were listening in.

I'm bouncing back and forth between my residence and my friend's. I'm learning a lot. Studying a lot. Watching a lot of media.

Laughing a lot at the irony of life/existence.

I don't consider myself shy anymore. I used to be the shyest person on the planet, and now I'm more like a roaring lion when the desire comes over me.

Ummmm.........

If I were in charge of the world I would:

(1) Resign
(2) Play 1960's peace music
(3) Listen to Aristotle on tape
(4) Listen to Plato on tape
(5) Listen to Homer on tape
(6) Listen to Cervantez on tape
(7) Make as much money as possible and use it for the good
(8) Get married to CVH and move to the wild wild west, manifest destiny
(9) Write, direct and produce a bunch of awesome movies
(10) Have lots of children

Probably a lot more stuff, but we'll keep it at that for now.

That's all for now, FOLKS!
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Wow - update time [Jun. 24th, 2008|02:38 am]
Youtube is so awesome. I love watching Looney Tunes on it. Pete Puma and Bugs - what a combination!

Books I'm reading currently: Plato (whatever I happen to think I should read): Phaedrus, Symposium, Republic, Charmides, Cratylus, Euthydemus, Laws, Lysis, Gorgias, Protagoras, etc etc, etc

Kevin Trudeau's "The Debt Cure"

Eating For Beauty by David Wolfe

Gulliver's Travels

The Bible

Judaism for Dummies

Chicken Soup for the Jewish Soul

Philo (A Platonic Jew)

Maimonides (Medieval Jewish Philosopher)

SeinLanguage by Jerry Seinfeld

The Dictionary

hmmmmm WHAT ELSE!?!?! Oh yeah, a really really perfect book for the time I got it was "On The Sea of Memory", really spectacular (Spared no expense! -quote from Jurassic Park)

Trying to remember how to heal. All the holistic treatments merely help the body do what it naturally was designed to do - heal itself. Remembering to recognize that sexuality and eroticism are a natural part of human experience, but that overindulgence can be as detrimental as anything else. So I've been told.

Books I'd like to read in the near future: The Odyssey by Homer, Some more plays by Aristophanes and other Greeks, More on The Music of the Spheres by Guy Merchie, Jewish books on Financial prosperity, Os Guinness' philanthropy books, more Napoleon Hill, (Honestly I'm getting a little burnt out on books...) BUT THAT'S BETTER THAN LIVING YOUR WHOLE LIFE IGNORANT!

I should be another Charles Shultz. What a genius.

Carpe Deum

Robin Williams is DA MAN
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3rd Grade Insight [Dec. 13th, 2007|03:55 pm]
IF ONLY

(a)

(b)

(c)

WHAT IF

(a)

(b)

(c)

PRESENT (NOW)

(a)

(b)

(c)

Print this out and use it as a guide to learn about yourself in the present; where you've been, where you're going and where you're at. ("My dear Phaedrus, whence come you and whither are you going?" - Socrates from Plato's dialogue "Phaedrus")
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(no subject) [Oct. 30th, 2007|11:42 am]
"Please be realistic. We haven't known each other for three years and I am not interested in a romantic relationship with you." In other words, "No."

What a scandal.

The only thing on my heart was this girl. Every reliable source of information (intuition) said she loved me and wanted me. Her words denied and betrayed this seemingly reliable source of information.

So much for soul-mates and true love.
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(no subject) [Sep. 29th, 2007|06:02 pm]
Why am I not going after the girl I love with everything and every power and intention and purposefulness that I have? Why am I not doing everything within my power to court this young princess? My lady?

It is because of the distraction of fear of criticism and opposition from, mostly, my family.

This girl has made it clear to me that she loves me. I have made it clear that I love her. The truest desire of my heart is to be with this sweet darling the rest of my life. My goal is to be a capitalist, an entrepreneur, to own my own business, to develop an alliance starting with her, and then another faithful loyal partner, and hopefully more, to put out CDs and do concerts of my own music and quality classical and jazz, solo or with a group, to benefit the world through timeless music.
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Science [Sep. 20th, 2007|08:25 pm]
Sitting around, going la la la, is pretty exciting and special.

When I sit on the chair I feel as though no one wants to look at me and look into my intenstines, small and large, but the problem with the small is that I have raked it over the coals and there is not a whole lot going on inside my stomach and I have many heroes and want to starve myself because I am aristocratical and see myself as a musical philospher aristocrat but I am not sure if I can call myself that in a democratic government. It is interesting listening to people who sound similar, like jerry seinfeld and kevin trudeau and john reynolds. It is interesting because they all sound similar, and I think all jewish. The funny thing is is that they all are funny, they are all pretty fast moving, clever, witty and john reynolds is now arguing for the objectivity for beauty. I am not sure what he is going to say, but he says the burden of proof is on the person who argues that beauty is not objective. The only thing I am wondering really about is the fact that philosophy says they love the sight of the truth, but I keep wondering about fictional characters like Merlin and Gandalf and Frodo and Bilbo, and Arthur and Pythagoras and the Pre-Socratics and Fival in fival goes west, but I often wonder whether or not everyone should become a Jew, or if everyone does not become a Jew, why does anyone become a Jew? What is the purpose of the Jew? I think it is interesting to note that Jew is short for Jewel, and that words can be turned into 26x26 combinations.

I like talking nonsense. Nonsense means not sensical, or nonsensical, or craziness.

Insight into spontaneity. Fire with fire. Water with air. Insight into earth's ecosystem. Jollification is an invented word.

I am sick of Christians who look like they had too many prunes. People who want all the benefits of Christianity but do not want to sacrifice anything for anyone, especially Christ?

We are invited to heaven for a party. God opens himself to reasonable confrontation. Mythology of Judaism is awesome. Joy of the Lord? Loss of objectivity inside of culture.
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Manifesto [Aug. 29th, 2007|05:15 am]
The bourgeoisie draws all nations into civilization. It compels all nations, on pain of extinction, to adopt the bourgeoisies mode of production. In a word it creates a world in its own image.

Not only has the bourgeoisie forged the weapons that bring death to itself, it has also called into existence men who are to wield those weapons - the modern working class - the proletarians.

The more openly this despotism (individual bourgeoisie manufactures himself) proclaims gain to be its end and aim, the more petty, the more hateful, and the more embittering it is.

The bourgeoisie finds itself in a constant battle. At first with the aristocracy; later on with those portions of the bourgeoisie itself, whose interests have become antagonistic to the progress of industry; at all times with the bourgeoisie of foreign countries
(lobbyists - today's bourgeoisie; Kevin Trudeau/John Reynolds - today's aristocracy)

The lower middle class, the small manufacturer, the shopkeeper, the artisan, the peasant, all these fight against the bourgeoisie, to save from extinction their existence as fragments of the middle class.

What the bourgeoisie, therefore produces, above all, is its own grave-diggers. Its fall and the victory of the proletariat are equally inevitable.

-K Marx

More examples of bourgeoisie, aristocracy and proletariat: ROBIN HOOD - Prince John - Bourgeoisie, Proletariat - peasants, Robin Hood and Little John - Noblemen (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robin_Hood)
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William Blake [Jun. 18th, 2007|11:01 am]
Poem lyrics of The Chimney Sweeper by William Blake.

A little black thing in the snow,
Crying "weep! weep!" in notes of woe!
"Where are thy father and mother? Say!"
"They are both gone up to the church to pray.

"Because I was happy upon the heath,
And smiled among the winter's snow,
They clothed me in the clothes of death,
And taught me to sing the notes of woe.

"And because I am happy and dance and sing,
They think they have done me no injury,
And are gone to praise God and his priest and king,
Who make up a heaven of our misery."
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Oh, so THAT'S what she says on the album! [Jun. 16th, 2007|11:35 am]
NARNIA Soundtrack, Alanis Morissette

I've been learning Polish a little and I've been actually creating new words myself. There's something very human about creating things either synthetically or imaginatively, meaning creating things from other sources and influences, and creating things from scratch, or from nothing.

The point of this and how it relates to the following lyrics is that I was trying to figure out who a certain person in my life is. I only knew her for about 9 months, and I left the school after that. She is Polish herself and I believe I have been given the insight that she is a Princess. She has royalty in her. So I asked God this question "Who is she? Who is she? Who is she?" over and over like that. I had been listening to the Narnia CD in my car and one of the tracks started playing which was the pop music after the orchestral music. I couldn't understand half the lyrics, but as she started singing "I am a Princess on the way to my throne..." it was as if the light came on.

I tried sitting in my car listening to the lyrics and writing them down on paper, but I had to leave a bunch of blank spaces along the way because she is not very intelligible in many instances. Now that I'm at a computer with internet I am able to look up the actual lyrics.

I also see a connection because she is the only girl who has ever opened herself up to me in a way that made her extremely vulnerable... and I distinctly remember her saying that I was "wonderful." So this song makes sense that it is insight from above.

Artist: Alanis Morissette Lyrics
Song: Wunderkind Lyrics

Oh perilous place walk backwards toward you
Blink disbelieving eyes chilled to the bone
Most visibly brave no aprehended gloom
First to take this foot to virgin snow

I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind
And I lift the envelope pushed far enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne

Destined to serve, destined to roam

Oh ominous place spellbound and unchild-proofed
My least favorite chill to bare alone
Compatriots in place they'd cringe if I told you
Our best back-pocket secret our bond full-blown

I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind
I am a pioneer naive enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne

Destined to seek, destined to know

Most beautiful place reborn and blown off roof
My view about-face whether great will be done

I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind
I am a ground-breaker naive enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne

I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind
I am a Joan of Arc and smart enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne

Destined to reign, destined to roam
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The Difficult Problem of Truth [Jun. 1st, 2007|11:32 am]
The Difficult Problem of Truth
THE DIFFICULT PROBLEM OF TRUTH

Now then, let's take the really difficult case. That difficult case is the case in which you ask, How do I test the correspondence between my own mind and reality, the world, to find out whether what I think is true? Let me show you why this is such a difficult case. Here we have the mind and here we have reality; and the mind is trying to know reality. In the mind is thought. Reality consists of existences. And those existences are things to be apprehended or known. But the thought, "Is that reality in my mind?" that thought is the reality that is apprehended. I don't have in my mind two things, my thought and the object of my thought. Whatever is in my mind is in my mind, and I can't know any "grasp of reality." I have no way of getting hold of reality except by knowing it. But then I can't test whether I know it or not by comparing what I know with what I am trying to know. Don't you see that in this case you can't make the comparison? There is no way of making a direct test between the two things that are supposed to correspond.

Let me put it to you another way. I express my thoughts in statements or propositions. Reality consists of the facts about which I am trying to make the propositions. And the propositions are true if they correspond with the facts. And the facts are the things to be known. The facts not as known, but to be known. The propositions are the facts as I think I know them. It isn't as if I had in one hand the propositions and in the other hand the factsa nd could look at them and say, "Oh, I see. My propositions correspond to the facts," because I have no grasp of the facts except in my own propositions about them. Hence I have no way of making a direct comparison between my propositions and the facts they are trying to state. So there is no direct or even indirect way of telling whether what I think, what I say, my propositions and judgments, correspond with the way things are.

And there is not even an indirect way of doing this because I can't ask "reality" questions the way I can ask another person questions and find out whether what I think agrees with what he thinks. I can't ask reality questions. Or, I can ask the questions, but I can't get any answers. Reality won't speak back to me. And so there is no way of getting by communication the direct or indirect test of whether what I think, what is in my mind, corresponds with reality and the way things are. That is the problem of truth. It's not the problem of knowing what truth is, but the problem of telling whether what I think is true is really true, if truth consists in the correspondence of my mind with reality.

CONSISTENCY IS NEEDED FOR TRUTH

There is the beginning of a solution to this problem. Staying within my own mind, let's suppose I make two statements. Let me call one of them proposition "p" and the other proposition "q". Those are two separate statements. Anything you want to say. Suppose these two statements are contradictory. (In my case it would be what I heard at church two Sundays ago---Unless you are in my church getting health, you have no hope. That's "p". "q" Would be his next statement. ---There's always hope.) Suppose they are like the statements "a is b and a is not b," or "two plus two equal four and two plus two does not equal four." Now we know, don't we, that both can't be true? In fact, one must be true and one must be false. And this test of contradiction or noncontradiction, or consistency, is the beginning of a sign within our own minds, just staying within our own minds and having nothing but the things we think ourselves, our own thoughts; we know that if we contradict ourselves or if we think contradictory things, we are missing the truth somewhere. And this is an interesting point, because for consistency or coherence or the absence of contradiction to be a sign of truth and falsity, or a difficulty about truth and falsity, it self-presupposes that there can be a correspondence between the mind and reality. For if reality were full of contradictions, then the presence of contradictions in the mind would not be a test or a sign of truth or falsity. Only if reality is non-contradictory, if there are in the world of existence no contradictions, we are committed to thinking that which we find a contradiction in our own minds, we have at least come into contact with one thing which is true and one which is false.

Most philosophers are not satisfied with this sign of truth. I say most, there are some exceptions; some philosophers think this is quite sufficient. For example, Descartes takes the view that when our own ideas are quite clear and distinct, when they are so clear and distinct that they are free from all contradiction, then we know we have the truth, then we are sure, we are certain of our possession of thet ruth. And Spinoza says, for example, "What can be clearer or more certain than a true idea as the standard of truth? Just as light reveals both itself and the darkness, so truth is the standard of itself and of the thoughts."

But this is not sufficient, I think. And I would like to show you why it is not. Suppose these two propositions are contradictory. What we know then is that one must be true and one must be false. But which? Either one could be true, either one could be false; we don't know which is true or false from knowing that their being contradictory makes one of them true and one false. How do we solve that problem? We could solve that problem only if in our mind there are some propositions or principles which are given as true, which we are certain about as true; so that these can be used as the measure or standard of thet ruth in other propositions. If, for example, we were absolutely sure that proposition "p" is true, then we would know that if "q" contradicts it, "q" is false. But we have to know first that "p" is true. And we can't know that simply from the fact that p contradicts q. To solve this problem fully we must have some assurance about certain propositions as true and use them to measure truth and falsity in others.

Aristotle makes this point, I think, very clearly when he says, "The human mind uses two kinds of principles. There are the unquestionable truths of the understanding which are axioms or self-evident truths of the understanding which are axioms or self-evident truths and there are the truths of perception, truths which we know, which we possess, when we perceive matters of fact, such as, "Here is a piece of paper in my hand," or "Here is a book, I see a book, I observe a book." That is a matter of fact I can't have any doubt about, just as the self-evident truth that the whole is greater than the part is a truth of my understanding about which I can have no doubt.

Now all that moderns have added to this is an elaborate, carefully, worked-out logic of the methods of empirical verification. But all the truth can be tested by finding whether or not anything else agrees with the facts we know by observation or agrees with the principles which are self-evident to our understanding. With these two at either extreme, we can tell whether anything else we think is true by seeing that it doesn't contradict this or this. I think if you will reflect about what I have said, you will see that it begins to solve the problem of how we tell whether a given statement is true or false in terms of the way that statement accords or disagrees with self-evident truths or truths of immediate perception of matters of fact.

THE IMMUTABILITY OF TRUTH

I think the time is almost up, but I would like to spend a moment more on that very interesting problem about the mutability of truth. Is truth eternal or does it change? There's no question that people change their minds, that the human face in the course of centuries passes from knowledge to error or from error to knowledge in the opinions that it holds. But this is a change in the human mind and not a change in the truth or in what is true. For example, the opinion that the earth was flat, if it ever was false, is always false. And the opposite opinion, that the earth in which we live is round, if it ever was true, is always true. The fact that people have changed their minds about whether the earth is flat or round doesn't make the truth of the matter itself change at all.

But you may say to me, Suppose that the earth tomorrow or next year were to change itself and suddenly become flat or oblong or something else, wouldn't the proposition that the earth is round become false? No, because if I were careful and exact enough, I would say that from the beginning until this year, the earth has been round. So that if next year the earth changed its shape, my proposition still would be true, because it would always remain true that up to this year the earth had been round. Hence I think it is fair to say that truth itself is immutable, even if we as humans in our thinking do not possess the truth immutably.

--Mortimer J. Adler "How to Think About Truth"
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When all else fails... [May. 29th, 2007|10:34 am]
Go to the library. I have about 8 book projects going on at once. The main one is Music of the Spheres by Merchie. I just started Darwin's Origin of Species. I also have Don Quixote, Kevin Trudeau's Natural Cures, the Bible, Homer's Illiad, Napoleon Hill's Think and Grow Rich, re-reading Dobson's Life on the Edge, and Plato (though he's going on the shelf for a while because I think I'm going a little mad from reading him so much).

I have also re-named myself. What do you all think? Don Logistos "Kevin" James Clair (French for "light", like Clair de Lune). Logistos is a derivation of Logos which means "word or reason", but really it's musical. So Logistos means "little music". I was inspired by Don Quixote who renamed himself. Don is Spanish for "sir". Since in America we have no equivalent of Don or Sir, I thought I'd call myself Don. Don is Spanish, Logistos is Greek, Kevin is Irish, James is English (I think?), Clair is French and my last name is Greek-English-French. it's been through all those nationalities. I'm kinda excited about my new name, but it certainly is open to improvement.

Maybe I'm off my rocker... but a lot of people re-name themselves historically.

Let's see, what else is happening? I ditched a rehearsal I was supposed to be at today. I ate hormone-infected cottage cheese last night and I feel horrid. I'm trying to stay away from all foods with chemicles, hormones, antibiotics, anything that doesn't say 100% certified organic. It is hard, but I find it is worth it, because if I don't I will get sicker and sicker and sicker and sicker. The food in the cafeteria at Biola made me so sick, it was all lard and sugar and I should have listened to my friend who kept saying that over and over. The chips and the sodas and the white flour and the sugar. Ugh. Why?? Why did they do that to us?

Now I'm at the library and I saw a girl sitting in the car next to me when I pulled in reading the Bible. I was reading Homer. I thought about something Dr Reynolds said about Torrey freshmen going up to non-torrey Biola students saying "What are you reading??? I'm reading Homer" and their response usually being something like "The Bible"... something inferior.

I asked her about what she was reading when she got out. I felt like I was invading her privacy a little but she said she was reading Timothy and that she was a Christian. i feel like I'm stalking her now cause she's sitting next to me in the computer lab. What a nutcase I am!

Hmmm.... Kevin Trudeau is a mastermind. Everyone should read his book "Natural Cures" and get his "Mega Memory" program. Life-changing, intelligent, valuable resources.

What else? I'm wearing black socks with white tennis shoes, my hair is not combed, I have blue athletic shorts on and a buttoned-down collared shirt on. I didn't shower and I'm out in public, yuck. I probably smell too.

i actually came into the library to rent a movie but I got distracted by the computer and so here I am typing away in this thing I haven't updated since who knows how long. One of my objectives is to find a girlfriend. The last serious relationship I had was at Biola. This was not a good thing. But it taught me an important lesson about myself. That is, "do not date someone you think you can live with. Date someone who will support you, defend you, someone who is not all about themselves, someone who doesn't have other 'guy friends' (or 'girl friends' if you're a girl). Find someone you can't live without (especially if you're looking at marriage). Remember you're accountable to God's laws even if you don't believe or hold to them. They will rule you in the end, so make sure you're not ignorant of them. Also remember, the divine law will heal you if you study it and submit to it.

Here's some insight I gained all by myself and drew a diagram, which i can't draw here, but I'll try to type it in words.

BLACK
FALSE PROPOSITIONS
No Dogs are Animals
All Dogs are Cats

GREY
Half-Truths
GREY PROPOSITIONS
Some Dogs are Animals
Some Cats are Animals
ABSURD

WHITE
TRUE PROPOSITIONS
All Dogs are Animals
No Dogs are Cats

OPINION
TRUE OPINION
"I Believe it's True..."
"I Believe it is the Case That..."

FALSE OPINION
No such thing

Truth.... ? God is Truth
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Torrey Students get Creative [Feb. 1st, 2007|01:53 pm]
Torrey Students get Creative

Paul Williams and Lisa Deats (Torrey Honors Institute Alumni)

Father of light in whom the seen and unseen are known
Good Creator, sweet Sustainer, Director of the dusk and the dawn
For Thy glory, for Thy glory do my body and soul reside

Beloved, begotten Son, the harbor from the tempest
The cleft in the rock.
Your body, Your blood, Your life, Your love You gave

Living Word guide this ransomed heart unto You
Spirit of Christ given by the Father
Redeemer from death to life
Through atoning water and pentecostal fire
Come and consecrate this temple for Your indwelling
You are One divinely united in love
Who lives and reigns
Lives and reigns
Who lives and reigns, world without end!

listen to it performed:

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=0FTJCP01
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For the beginning writer [Jan. 30th, 2007|09:38 pm]
Oh Wow. This is the most awesome blog I've ever stumbled upon. And even more fascinating that I'm trying to teach a young student in the classical tradition I find this entry on beginning writing. WOW

"One of the first things we have to say to a beginner who has brought us his M.S. is, 'Avoid all epithets which are merely emotional. It is no use telling us that something was "mysterious" or "loathsome" or "awe-inspiring" or "voluptuous". Do you think your readers will believe you just because you say so? You must go quite a different way to work. By direct description, by metaphor and simile, by secretly evoking powerful associations, by offering the right stimuli to our nerves (in the right degree and the right order), and by the very beat and vowel-melody and length and brevity of your sentences, you must bring it about that we, we readers, not you, exclaim "how mysterious!" or "loathsome" or whatever it is. Let me taste for myself, and you'll have no need to tell me how I should react to the flavour.'"
~C.S. Lewis, Studies in Words, (1960)

Taken from http://yourdailycslewis.blogspot.com/
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Distractions [Jan. 30th, 2007|08:34 pm]
Today was full of wonder. Speaking with the man I spoke with this morning was incredible. I feel like he is the epitome of what humanity should be like, or he is like the epitome of the Judao-Christian ideal.

After our conversation I went to work and my confidence level was BOOMING. I think it's partly because of the testosterone supplements I took, but the effect of the conversation was just wonderful. That's the best word I can think of to describe my emotion. Wonder. It is the opposite of how I felt after work. Commonplace. People are intimidated when I question them about how they are using their words. I am "overthinking", supposedly. What is overthinking? Can someone please help me out? Wanting to communicate better is overthinking, according to the people I work with. Asking "What do you mean by that word, or how are you using that word?" is overbearing, overthinking.

*sigh*

Internet headline made me laugh: "Monks need to stop recording albums and go back to their monasteries."
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Adler on language [Jan. 12th, 2007|01:06 pm]
Adler on language
For clarity, when I say 'mark' I mean 'spelling', and when I say 'sound' I mean 'pronunciation'.

On HOMONYMs ['same mark or sound, different meanings'; what you use a DICTIONARY for] and SYNONYMs ['same meaning, different marks or sounds'; what you use a THESAURUS for] and the ambiguity of language.

(HOMOPHONEs [literally 'same sound, same or different spellings and different meanings') and ANTONYMs ['opposed meanings/spellings/sounds'] are different; according to dictionary.com, homophone = a word pronounced the same as another but differing in meaning, whether spelled the same way or not, as heir and air. and ANTONYM= a word opposite in meaning to another. The word To Chase is the opposite of to Run away, to retreat.)--

What are wind [wind blows..] and wind [you wind the clock]? Same mark, different sound and meaning?

According to Adler, there is "the problem of ambiguity which arises from the fact that we often have many meanings for one and the same word, and also from the fact that we often have many words to express one and the same idea. These two facts that we have too many words sometimes for a single idea, or on the other hand, too many meanings for a single word, really creates the problem of communication."

Now, I wrote this in the margin of my book (The Great Ideas from the Great Books of Western Civilization by Mortimer J. Adler) from Dictionary.com: "two words are HOMONYMS if they are pronounced or spelled the same way but have different meanings [i.e. chase "to pursue" and chase "to ornament metal.", this is what your dictionary tells you - all the homonyms for every mark and sound] and SYNONYM = A word having the same or nearly the same meaning as another word or other words in a language. [i.e. some SYNONYMs for chase would be hunt, hunting, prey, quest, race, venery; the idea these all have in common is "to pursue".. but then again, wouldn't "pursue" just be another SYNONYM?)

I have always wondered about these terms, homophone, homonym, synonym, and antonym, and their relations and distinctions ever since I was in elementary school. I could never explain them well or have them clearly distinguished in my mind since then.

I think Adler is addressing this issue here. The main confusion is between HOMOPHONEs and HOMONYMs, and the distinction is above, but I'll repeat it. The distinction is thus: two words are HOMONYMS if they are pronounced or spelled the same way but have different meanings, and a HOMOPHONE is a word pronounced the same as another but differing in meaning, whether spelled the same way or not, as heir and air. Wind [wend] and wind [wined] are close but are exceptions... I can't think of the name for this...

Kind of confusing, but I think I see it better now. I will work to remember this so I can explain it to another!

Adler continues, "Think about what communication means. Communication has at the root of it unity, community. It involves two minds sharing the same idea. It isn't enough that they use the same word, because if two people use the same word, one having one meaning for it, another a quite different meaning, they aren't communicating. They are communicating only if, when one uses the word and the other uses the same word, they use it to express the same idea, the same emotion, the same thought, or the same intention. Only in that way do you have two minds getting together, coming to terms, sharing experiences of a mental or emotional sort.

One of the problems that people have always faced is how to overcome this difficulty about our conventional languages. Sometimes they think that the problem would be solved if we could invent an ideal language in which each word had only one meaning. But I don't think this would solve the problem because then we would have to find other words to express the relation, the connection, of the various meanings. For example, when we use the word "freedom" we often use it in a number of different senses, but those senses are connected. And the connection of those senses is part of the significance of the word "freedom." If we were to have a different word for each meaning of the word "freedom," we wouldn't be able to express our sense of the connection of those different meanings.

I think the only solution--to the ambiguity of words as a barrier to communication or a difficulty with human speech--the only solution is not one of inventing an ideal or perfect language but rather using the language we have, using the words we have, to clarify the meanings of our words. We have to use speech in order to make speech itself more perfect or more usable or more effective. It is a hard job, one we must be continually at. And only by working at it can we bring our minds together through the medium of language."

This is also something I've thought about... the fact that the words we use have multiple meanings but those meanings are all connected with that one word. And, like the word "rationale", we can break it down into small parts but there still is a connection with all those parts. So we have rationale, rational, ration, and ratio. If you think about all those words you can see a common thread. But you have to spend some time with it and think long and hard for clarity...

This will be a life long project! And anyone who loves language should endeavour to engage and wrestle with this problem. Philologists (those engaged in literary study or classical scholarship), philosophers (those who regulate their lives, actions, judgments, utterances, etc., by the light of philosophy or reason), theologians (those versed in the study of the nature of God and religious truth; rational inquiry into religious questions), scientists (those engaged in the study of knowledge, especially that gained through experience), you name it, everyone who uses language (all men!) should be wrestling with this problem, in order to make our language more perfect and to communicate with one another more perfectly.


Then I have this,

HOMOPHONE = "Same sound, same or different mark and different meaning"
HOMONYM = "Same mark or sound, different meaning"
SYNONYM = "Same meaning, different mark or sound"
ANTONYM = "Opposed meanings, and hence different marks and different sounds"

PHEW, you could go ON and ON with this! This was quite a workout!!


(Theology, philosophy, philology, theosophy)???
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(no subject) [Jan. 9th, 2007|10:34 pm]
IS ANYONE READING MY JOURNAL? If not I can stop posting. I have my own journal in my bedroom and I have myspace that I know people are reading. I don't need this one.

Here's something I performed a few years back... well, Feb of 2000. Grieg Piano Concerto in A minor, second movement. It's nice, eh?

http://www.uploading.com/files/VLSWNL62/05_Grieg___w_Solano_2000_2001.m4a.html
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